The Beginning of My Godlike Productions Addiction
It started, as so much else did, in the year after 9-11, when I was living on the east coast of Oz with my boyfriend, Genius.
He searched the Net, day after day, looking for answers to what-the-fuck was going on in the world.
He found Planet X and a prep forum, set up to help survive the approach of the legendary missing planet, due in 2003.
From there, he was naturally led to Godlike Productions. This was a time when the conspiracy circles were in a spin after the Y2K disaster had failed to materialize, and those that had stocked up on supplies felt burned and were quitting holding out for change.
Not Genius!
He was determined and not so easily diverted - and he also commandeered our internet connection, so at first I only participated in a second-hand way. I can't remember when I actually started posting, as Maud, but I do remember being blown away by the onslaught of opinions and theories, the discussions on everything under the Sun, the sheer madness, the speed with which my own posts could end up off the first page without a reply.
When I did get a reply, it was a real thrill, and as my eyes gradually opened to what was going on, I became hooked.
The conversation was simply too intriguing and important to leave.
GLP was a web of threads within the Net, truth interwoven like a golden strand through a tangle of lies and wishful thinking and crazy theories - it was a heady mix interlaced with humour and great personalities.
I was Maud for a few years, posting intermittently when Genius let me at the computer. I was Maud when Planet X did not flip the poles of the Earth.
The conspiracy community wasn't too fazed by this, by then it had become clear to a core group that the date (of the end-of-the-world-as-we-know-it) would not be broadcast from the rooftops and that smoke and mirrors were the order of the day.
The information that comes through GLP is sometimes at the leading edge of science, of thinking by the best minds in the world, brought to the forum for discussion, by members who comb the internet for it.
Something Big is going on in the world, to do with the climate and Western civilization, we are living in these times, to shut one's eyes to this is not an option for the people who frequent GLP and the other conspiracy forums. Now, in 2012, the wider population is more aware of where we are, and the information has slowly seeped in to mass consciousness, but back then, in the years following 9-11, when Genius spoke about it, he was mostly met with derision.
Part Two of My Godlike Productions Addiction
It was while I was living in Broome, that I became Kalamity Kool (in 2003 if I remember right).
I was in the Notre Dame University library, pretending to be doing my Master's in Internet Studies,
while actually posting on GLP, and the discussion about Osama was heated.
Some perverse streak in my nature prompted me to change my signature line to:
"daydreaming about being Osama's concubine"
and I was auto-banned.
In my internet naivety, it didn't occur to me that I could appeal the auto-ban, so I accepted the end of Maud, the daydreamer, and the lure of those deep dark eyes, but I did learn that if you push the boundaries, you get more info ;) and learn something you would never have found otherwise.
So, I sat there, in the library, staring at the screen, saying goodbye to a part of myself.
I can't say from where exactly, the name Kalamity Kool came from, except my childhood hero had been Calamity Jane, the fastest female gun-draw in the West, and the 'cool' came from my belief that our collective calamity is going to be living in an ice-age, the KK's came from the many ghetto influences in my life.
Once I logged on, with a suitably shady disguise, as Kalamity Kool, that is who I became.
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And it was a rebirth, of sorts..
As KK, my true internet personality was unleashed, and over years, she has become an intimate part of me, it seems to me, we have became one.
As KK I speak out loud about what I see in the world, the chance to do this in' real life' does not come often enough to satisfy me. For the last several years, the various conspiracies have ceased to interest me (like many of us old-timers on conspiracy forums) and the spiritual aspects of our situation have come to be the focus, as well as what the shape of the society that follows this period of calamity looks like.
The survivors of the calamities will get a chance to start again, maybe not completely, but we can build a better world, it is not a utopian cliche, and it is this, more than anything, that keeps me writing now, because to my immense surprise, it has become apparent very few believe it, or even want to bother trying.
Part Three of My Godlike Productions Addiction
Godlike.
I can't deny I was an internet utopian, replete with rose-coloured glasses, and not yet fully conscious.. It took me a while to fully realize the internet, is real life, and the posters I was ummm..
stalking (in the hearting kind of way!)
(a bit in the sexual kind of way, too...lol)
were real people. It took me a while to be real.
I wasn't tempted to have many avatars, it's a game, and bores me...what has fascinated me is the revelation of the truth. Including mine...
so here I am.
I fell in love of sorts ;) with a man much younger, it was wild and fantastic, and I don't think either of us regrets it...
We never met, but it was real, like all our connections made with love.
It existed only in cyberspace,
the novelty was exciting in itself, it's like the old pen-pal thing, you are getting to know someone through their written words, and he had a striking internet presence, very real and he knew about God, and his young heart was full of flames.
If you were to read our escapades on the forum, dear Reader, I would be embarrassed now, though at the time my offline self was much more separate from Kalamity, and I saw myself as young as he was. Gradually, reality intruded of course, and we became friends without the sexual charge attached, we are out of contact now, he has a real girlfriend, but maybe one day we will correspond again.
Sudel_Tek, if you chance to read this, g'day and blessings xx
It was that experience, that taught me about the nature of reality in cyberspace, more than anything.
If I'd never dived in, I could never have discovered all I did :)
And, I learnt so much at GLP! For which I'm forever grateful.
The stimulation to my intellect led to the births of new ideas,
like Stalker1.com
It started, as so much else did, in the year after 9-11, when I was living on the east coast of Oz with my boyfriend, Genius.
He searched the Net, day after day, looking for answers to what-the-fuck was going on in the world.
He found Planet X and a prep forum, set up to help survive the approach of the legendary missing planet, due in 2003.
From there, he was naturally led to Godlike Productions. This was a time when the conspiracy circles were in a spin after the Y2K disaster had failed to materialize, and those that had stocked up on supplies felt burned and were quitting holding out for change.
Not Genius!
He was determined and not so easily diverted - and he also commandeered our internet connection, so at first I only participated in a second-hand way. I can't remember when I actually started posting, as Maud, but I do remember being blown away by the onslaught of opinions and theories, the discussions on everything under the Sun, the sheer madness, the speed with which my own posts could end up off the first page without a reply.
When I did get a reply, it was a real thrill, and as my eyes gradually opened to what was going on, I became hooked.
The conversation was simply too intriguing and important to leave.
GLP was a web of threads within the Net, truth interwoven like a golden strand through a tangle of lies and wishful thinking and crazy theories - it was a heady mix interlaced with humour and great personalities.
I was Maud for a few years, posting intermittently when Genius let me at the computer. I was Maud when Planet X did not flip the poles of the Earth.
The conspiracy community wasn't too fazed by this, by then it had become clear to a core group that the date (of the end-of-the-world-as-we-know-it) would not be broadcast from the rooftops and that smoke and mirrors were the order of the day.
The information that comes through GLP is sometimes at the leading edge of science, of thinking by the best minds in the world, brought to the forum for discussion, by members who comb the internet for it.
Something Big is going on in the world, to do with the climate and Western civilization, we are living in these times, to shut one's eyes to this is not an option for the people who frequent GLP and the other conspiracy forums. Now, in 2012, the wider population is more aware of where we are, and the information has slowly seeped in to mass consciousness, but back then, in the years following 9-11, when Genius spoke about it, he was mostly met with derision.
Part Two of My Godlike Productions Addiction
It was while I was living in Broome, that I became Kalamity Kool (in 2003 if I remember right).
I was in the Notre Dame University library, pretending to be doing my Master's in Internet Studies,
while actually posting on GLP, and the discussion about Osama was heated.
Some perverse streak in my nature prompted me to change my signature line to:
"daydreaming about being Osama's concubine"
and I was auto-banned.
In my internet naivety, it didn't occur to me that I could appeal the auto-ban, so I accepted the end of Maud, the daydreamer, and the lure of those deep dark eyes, but I did learn that if you push the boundaries, you get more info ;) and learn something you would never have found otherwise.
So, I sat there, in the library, staring at the screen, saying goodbye to a part of myself.
I can't say from where exactly, the name Kalamity Kool came from, except my childhood hero had been Calamity Jane, the fastest female gun-draw in the West, and the 'cool' came from my belief that our collective calamity is going to be living in an ice-age, the KK's came from the many ghetto influences in my life.
Once I logged on, with a suitably shady disguise, as Kalamity Kool, that is who I became.
.JPG)
And it was a rebirth, of sorts..
As KK, my true internet personality was unleashed, and over years, she has become an intimate part of me, it seems to me, we have became one.
As KK I speak out loud about what I see in the world, the chance to do this in' real life' does not come often enough to satisfy me. For the last several years, the various conspiracies have ceased to interest me (like many of us old-timers on conspiracy forums) and the spiritual aspects of our situation have come to be the focus, as well as what the shape of the society that follows this period of calamity looks like.
The survivors of the calamities will get a chance to start again, maybe not completely, but we can build a better world, it is not a utopian cliche, and it is this, more than anything, that keeps me writing now, because to my immense surprise, it has become apparent very few believe it, or even want to bother trying.
Part Three of My Godlike Productions Addiction
Godlike.
I can't deny I was an internet utopian, replete with rose-coloured glasses, and not yet fully conscious.. It took me a while to fully realize the internet, is real life, and the posters I was ummm..
stalking (in the hearting kind of way!)
(a bit in the sexual kind of way, too...lol)
were real people. It took me a while to be real.
I wasn't tempted to have many avatars, it's a game, and bores me...what has fascinated me is the revelation of the truth. Including mine...
so here I am.
I fell in love of sorts ;) with a man much younger, it was wild and fantastic, and I don't think either of us regrets it...
We never met, but it was real, like all our connections made with love.
It existed only in cyberspace,
the novelty was exciting in itself, it's like the old pen-pal thing, you are getting to know someone through their written words, and he had a striking internet presence, very real and he knew about God, and his young heart was full of flames.
If you were to read our escapades on the forum, dear Reader, I would be embarrassed now, though at the time my offline self was much more separate from Kalamity, and I saw myself as young as he was. Gradually, reality intruded of course, and we became friends without the sexual charge attached, we are out of contact now, he has a real girlfriend, but maybe one day we will correspond again.
Sudel_Tek, if you chance to read this, g'day and blessings xx
It was that experience, that taught me about the nature of reality in cyberspace, more than anything.
If I'd never dived in, I could never have discovered all I did :)
And, I learnt so much at GLP! For which I'm forever grateful.
The stimulation to my intellect led to the births of new ideas,
like Stalker1.com
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