All it took, in the end, is an elbow with some pain.
I don't know what is wrong with it, but it is swollen, and aching, and I don't think I'll be cleaning tomorrow.
So, my financial situation is now hopelessly ridiculous, from bad to worse, at that point when I just have to
throw my hands in the air, laugh out loud (LOL!)
and succomb to my Beloved's promise
to take care of me, as He does the birds in the air.
I hold on, hold on, doing all I can, to do what is needed,
then, poof! just like that, a time and place is reached and I know
I'm there
where I acknowledge I am nothing without God
all my plans and strivings amount to zero, without His blessing.
My anxiety goes, I feel such a relief, resting in peace, in the palm of His hand :)
It may not mean much to most of you, a day off work, with a sore elbow, but it could
cost me my job, and one day drops my meagre income significantly.
It also signals an end to my slavery in this New (very old) World Order, an inner struggle I've
had for sometime...
To fit in with the ruling paradigm, to be a cooperating member of the community, to not be a sponge,
and do my bit, I have worked all year, given it my best shot, hours of slavery, to live well below the poverty level for this society.
It has taken sooo much out of me, I have no energy for writing, for my purpose in existence,
but I thought it was the right thing to do.
Now I think it is not.
I don't know yet what God will organize for me, what is to come, this is more an inner stance of resistance to the rule of satan, than an opting out and becoming a bum.
Dear Reader, I'll keep you informed.
xx KK
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